Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Home is Where the Heart Is
And then, just like that, came Friday May 11, 2012.
Very early in the morning on Thursday May 10, I flew to Columbus, Ohio for a work project. Columbus is where I had lived from February 2006 until this past August, 2011. A fabulous friend greeted me at the Columbus airport, and we stopped for a quick but lovely coffee catch- up chat before I had to report for work. The project kept me busy until fairly late into the evening, but I was able to meet up with some of my favorite people for a glass of wine at one of my favorite (old) neighborhood spots before crashing in a friend's guest room.
I felt it the minute I got off the plane. I was home. Denver, Colorado is my home.
Had I needed to step back in order to move forward? Was the "Columbus is no longer your home" trigger in my cerebral cortex set off when I slept in a friend's guest room even though just around the corner stood the house where my son took his first steps, and where I brought my newborn daughter from the hospital? Perhaps there is some mathematical theorem supporting the hypothesis that it takes nine months of living in a new city for it to start to feel like home.
PLEASE NOTE DEAR C-BUS FRIENDS THAT THIS DOES NOT MEAN TO FORGET, STOP CHERISHING, &/OR NOT DO EVERYTHING IIN MY POWER TO BUILD AND GROW OUR RELATIONSHIPS FROM A DISTANCE.
I will do all of those things. And I am moving on.
In her new book "Lots of Candles, Plenty of Cake," one of my favorite authors, Anna Quindlen, reflects on her approach towards the age of 60. At one point, she ponders whether just like there is a resting heart rate, perhaps there is also a resting age rate. I.e., the age you naturally feel. And Quindlen writes, "If you woke me from a sound sleep and shouted, “How old are you?” I suspect I’d mutter, “Forty-one.”
Quindlen then writes ... "And if you woke me up from a sound sleep and shouted, “How’s 60 looking?” I would murmur, “Good. Really good. Better, in many ways, than 41."
Maybe there's a resting home rate for people who move around a lot. Not a resting-home as in where I might be living in fifty years or so, but place where I naturally feel like I live.
I suspect that if you woke me from a sound sleep and shouted, "Where are you from?" I would say Newport News, Virginia. Although its been 27 years since I had an address there, its where I was born, and where I spent the first thirteen years of my life accepted, embraced, and celebrated by a large extended family.
I also suspect that if you woke me from a sound sleep and shouted, "How's your home now?" I would murmur, "Everything I always dreamed of." And I suspect, hell, I know, that my answer would have nothing to do with location.
Home is where the heart is. Where you choose to raise your children. Love your husband. Build a community. Be a friend. Keep learning. Keep living. Grow old.
Hello, Denver, Colorado. Here I am.